Sharing

I have never been very good at sharing my babies with other people. Whenever someone would ask to hold them I would let them but at the first sign of trouble I would take them back. I don't really know why whether I worried about inconveniencing them or I was selfish or I just don't like to share. I will always remember one of the first conversation that Chris and I had when we found out that Little Man had Down Syndrome. It was all about the importance of sharing him with other people. We felt like the more people who knew him and loved him the better his life would be. When I finally returned to church with Little Man, after RSV season was over, whomever asked to hold him I let them. I thought would be hard but it really wasn't. It was comforting to see that others loved him and wanted to be around him.

Two weeks after we went back to church Chris was called as the bishop of our ward. I was so surprised when the Stake President extended the calling to us. Little Man was only four months old and I did not know how I was going to handle a new baby and three other children. I remember praying all week before his first Sunday that somehow I would be able to make it through church without breakdown and crying in front of everyone. I have done that before and it was kind of humiliating. My goal is to usually wait until I get home before I have a break down.

I do not remember if it was that first Sunday or the next one but before the meeting start an angel grandma by the name of Mary Wayment asked if she could hold Little Man during sacrament meeting. I of course let her and she has been taking him every Sunday for the last year. I can not put into words how grateful I am for her and her unselfish service to us. I have prayed many time thanking my Heavenly Father for her.


Two weeks ago when Little Man had his ear infection he was extremely ornery so I did not want Mary to have do deal with him so I just kept him. I made it through the whole meeting without even having to go out in the hall with him. I was a little bit frustrated with my other children because they all wanted to be right next to Little Man but overall it was not too bad. This last Sunday Mary was not there so we made it through church again and I was still smiling by the end. I think I can do this by myself. I am so grateful that Heavenly Father sends individual to help us when we really need it until we are able to stand on our own.